France (Francis Bonnefoy) (
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The dire wolf collects his dues, while the boys sing round the fire
Who: France and you!
When: November 1st, from about noon to sunset
Where: All over the island - feel free to meet him anywhere!
What: France is alive, but contemplating his successive deaths in the forest, and is appreciating life just a little more. Also he looks terrible.
Warnings: Mentions of death and small mentions of bile, lots of ~feelings~. Likely lots of tearful reunions.
It was with a jolt that Francis woke, as he sat straight up with a gasp. But his head began to spin, his whole body tingled as he remembered the scene in the forest, with the wolf slashing at his flesh. It almost seemed like a dream, now, but it felt so real -
Francis felt the bile rising in his throat and in a rush he tried to clamber out of bed, to get to the bathroom, but his limbs just wouldn't work - they were numb from not being used for several days. So he ended up on all fours on the floor, retching, body trembling all over from the nostalgic chills of pain, from the phantom feeling of missing flesh despite his side looking very much present, and him being very much alive. France felt as if he was going to be sick again, but he had nothing in his stomach in the first place, so the little bit of bile was all that stained his floor, as he continued to dry heave for what seemed like an eternity. Damn this mortal body! Francis thought to himself, eyes closed, teeth gritted, as he tried to get it back under his control.
Once it seemed to be done, Francis coughed, wiping off his mouth on the back of his sleeve. He recognized it - the old, blood-stained, red costume he was forced to wear that night. Thankfully, the hat and the mask were completely gone. But that thing... it still felt wrong to be in it. And with the slight smell of blood... well, it was almost making him sick, again. So he decided to quickly change out of it into something else. He tugged off the coat, throwing it to the side - the shirt went over his head and in the same pile. The boots he had to sit on the floor to tug off, and the leggings were (thankfully) easy to remove. Shakily, he stood back up, and went to his wardrobe to look at his choices. He pulled on a simple shirt and pair of slacks - but he had to lean against the wardrobe to get dressed, and he couldn't even really be bothered with buttons or laces, so he ended up also slipping on a pair of loafers.
Once Francis has changed out of his old costume and fixed his room (thank god his imagination could get rid of his bile and that old costume for good), he carefully used the wall to climb out into the main room of his house. But that wasn't what he was interested in - he wanted to go outside. So, he used the wall to make it to the front door, and stepped outside.
Then sun felt good on his face. It almost made him feel better, somehow, and it was what finally got him to take a trembling step on his own, away from any support. Within a few minutes, he felt as if he could walk again, and so he started around the island, looking at everything again with new eyes. But something still plagued his thoughts, and that was the thought of his death in the forest. He remembered distinctly that he had said his last goodbyes to a number of people. Was he going mad? He had remembered distinct times when he felt himself giving his last breath. And they were multiple. But that was impossible, unless...
(( ooc: Please specify time and location in the title of your post! Thank you! ))
When: November 1st, from about noon to sunset
Where: All over the island - feel free to meet him anywhere!
What: France is alive, but contemplating his successive deaths in the forest, and is appreciating life just a little more. Also he looks terrible.
Warnings: Mentions of death and small mentions of bile, lots of ~feelings~. Likely lots of tearful reunions.
It was with a jolt that Francis woke, as he sat straight up with a gasp. But his head began to spin, his whole body tingled as he remembered the scene in the forest, with the wolf slashing at his flesh. It almost seemed like a dream, now, but it felt so real -
Francis felt the bile rising in his throat and in a rush he tried to clamber out of bed, to get to the bathroom, but his limbs just wouldn't work - they were numb from not being used for several days. So he ended up on all fours on the floor, retching, body trembling all over from the nostalgic chills of pain, from the phantom feeling of missing flesh despite his side looking very much present, and him being very much alive. France felt as if he was going to be sick again, but he had nothing in his stomach in the first place, so the little bit of bile was all that stained his floor, as he continued to dry heave for what seemed like an eternity. Damn this mortal body! Francis thought to himself, eyes closed, teeth gritted, as he tried to get it back under his control.
Once it seemed to be done, Francis coughed, wiping off his mouth on the back of his sleeve. He recognized it - the old, blood-stained, red costume he was forced to wear that night. Thankfully, the hat and the mask were completely gone. But that thing... it still felt wrong to be in it. And with the slight smell of blood... well, it was almost making him sick, again. So he decided to quickly change out of it into something else. He tugged off the coat, throwing it to the side - the shirt went over his head and in the same pile. The boots he had to sit on the floor to tug off, and the leggings were (thankfully) easy to remove. Shakily, he stood back up, and went to his wardrobe to look at his choices. He pulled on a simple shirt and pair of slacks - but he had to lean against the wardrobe to get dressed, and he couldn't even really be bothered with buttons or laces, so he ended up also slipping on a pair of loafers.
Once Francis has changed out of his old costume and fixed his room (thank god his imagination could get rid of his bile and that old costume for good), he carefully used the wall to climb out into the main room of his house. But that wasn't what he was interested in - he wanted to go outside. So, he used the wall to make it to the front door, and stepped outside.
Then sun felt good on his face. It almost made him feel better, somehow, and it was what finally got him to take a trembling step on his own, away from any support. Within a few minutes, he felt as if he could walk again, and so he started around the island, looking at everything again with new eyes. But something still plagued his thoughts, and that was the thought of his death in the forest. He remembered distinctly that he had said his last goodbyes to a number of people. Was he going mad? He had remembered distinct times when he felt himself giving his last breath. And they were multiple. But that was impossible, unless...
(( ooc: Please specify time and location in the title of your post! Thank you! ))
outside, mid morning
"Good morning. ... are you doing all right?"
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Quietly, he approached with a wave in return, and sat next to him. Uncharacteristic of the man, yes, especially when he continued to stay quiet as he thought. But what was there to say? No, he wasn't all right. But he didn't want to burden Minato with his troubles. The poor kid had to be dealing with enough.
"Bonjour. The island is very beautiful today, non?"
He settled with diverting the question. Until he knew himself whether he truly was going to be all right, he didn't feel that answering the question would be a good idea.
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"Mm. Especially after everything that's happened lately."
He was taking a bit of a risk making that statement - that France would pry or that he'd clam up and not talk at all, but Minato suspects that whatever happened over the past several days probably has something to do with his friend's mood now.
Besides, focusing on other people's problems means he doesn't have to worry about his own, right?no subject
"Oui." France agreed, looking up at the sky again, before letting out a little chuckle. "It is almost like being reborn, non? After such a scary thing..."
France didn't seem to feel ready to talk about his experience yet, but it was a good sign that he still wanted to talk.
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"Yeah... that's a good way of putting it..."
outside, afternoon
Walking back, Teddie had gotten some of the supplies by coaxing them out of the people at the shopping district. It was good that he didn't use the bear costume all the time. With his long, curly blond hair pulled up in a ponytail, he just walked down the street to see France.
Hurrying over to him, he quickly hugs the man tightly as he almost cries.
"Francis-chan!! You're back!" Teddie said, hugging onto him tightly, the contents of his bag on the ground now. Most of it was candy...
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"Teddie... it is so good to see you, mon ami."
But he started as he heard what Teddie had said. "You're back." Did that mean what had happened in the forest was real? Or was this another trick by the Rulers? The more he thought about this, the less sense any of it made.
"What do you mean?"
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"The wolf got you when we were attacked. I tried to heal you, but it didn't help much." Teddie said, looking down a little bit, "You...died."
It was hard to say it, considering that he really valued Francis as a friend.
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"I suppose... it is a relief, that you remember this too." He couldn't help but smile, his energies going to his fatherly instincts, trying to reassure Teddie, now. "You did your best, cher. That is all I can ask for, non?" It was only then that he pulled away, and looked down at Teddie.
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outside, near the violet district, late afternoon?
.. You know.. [ not that her tone isn't just deadpan as usually. ] you look like you've seen better days.
[ so helpful, ange. ]
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Have I? [He asks her, smiling, trying to hide just how terrible he feels inside.] Well, this took a toll on us all, non?
[yes very helpful :|]
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Although I'm sure it did more for certain people among us than others. I didn't really even get hurt, after all.
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[He pauses too, though admittedly it's because he noticed his hand was shaking. Just thinking about that wolf is causing him to tremble. But it's over now, right? Once he gets his hand tremor under control by clenching it into a fist, he continues.]
I did try to stop it, at least for a while. If anyone was saved, I will consider what happened worth it in the end.
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You are really that noble to put yourself on the line for others?
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[And the frustration he's been keeping so very close to the surface is starting to leak out, as he grits his teeth, his free hand quickly going into his hair as if to pull it back.]
And yet, I am still not sure I did anything at all...!
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That's not true. You're working harder than anyone else for all of us here. [ The plan with the boat back then too, after all - even if it failed, he was the one who helped push everyone for it, right? ] Don't doubt yourself. That's exactly what they want.
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Non?
[Francis listens carefully to what she has to say.]
... I am not sure I am working harder than everyone... [He lets go of his hair so that he can pull his knees up to his chest, quietly sitting there for a moment before responding again.] Mais... you are right. The Rulers want this, non? They want to break us...
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.. Yeah, that's right. They want us to just give up so they can easily turn us into things and people that aren't even ourselves anymore, but.. there's no way we can just let that happen, right? We all have to keep fighting.
I know I'll never give up at least. For sure.
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[He gives a bit of a dry smile.] And if what you say is any indication, the people on this island need me too, non?
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Considering I'm one of them, I can say that's definitely true, yeah. [ It's not exactly a smile - Ange hardly ever smiles - but it's the closest thing possible that appears on her lineface. ]
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Merci. Really, I... it is one of the sweetest things anyone has said to me.
[And since they're not really close, at least not close enough for a hug, he just sort of... places his hand on her shoulder instead.]
Merci.
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You sure must know a lot of people who say super dumb things then, since that wasn't even remotely sweet. [ Yup, she's even looking tsun as she says it. ]
late evening - the park
The park was just one decent place to go for a run. He didn't mind the cold temperatures and while the sky darkened above, the nation stuck in an awfully mortal body could... Think. Because there were many things he had to think about. The recent events for once. But also he had to roll ideas and information around if he wanted to form a solid plan to go against their captors. Because he was sick of it already. They would pay. For trapping everyone here and playing with them. He would make sure of that.
The German idly noticed another person up ahead. At this hour that was a bit odd, but Germany wasn't going to question anyone's motives. He was here himself after all. And it was only once he got closer to that person that he slowly began to recognize a familiar shape...
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It's all too late to do anything about it when he realizes that there's another person with him. He stops, looking up at the approaching figure, to see Germany, out for one of his daily runs. A cold chill runs through his spine, but France is not sure whether it's due to the memory (or was it a memory?) of his death in front of Germany, or if it was the weather, or a bit of both, or neither at all.
He must have looked odd to Germany, wearing no coat, having pulled on just some simple clothes and some loafers. No jacket, not even a sweater against the cold. France just stared at Germany as he approached, his blue eyes a lot more muted, a lot less sparkling and cheerful than usual.
"Bonsoir, Allemagne."
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With a grimace of clear disbelief on his face Germany slowed to a stop that left several metres between the two nations. He didn't speak. He only stared, panting somewhat from his workout. But this couldn't have been a ghost. There were no ghosts. Or were there? Surely no one died and came back just like that! So it really only left the ghost possibility.
"...have you come to haunt me?"
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But he wasn't sure he felt anger over what had happened. And Germany's words made him laugh, even if the anxious feeling was still there.
"Haunt you? Non." He finally said, drawing a bit closer, but not enough to scare Germany. "I am not a ghost. At least, I do not think so, Allemagne."
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"You died." was the simple reply Germany gave "You ceased being alive."
And that was it. France had died. Like a mere human. So there was no possible way for him to be standing here in front of him right now.
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"I... remember this, oui." His hand instinctively went up to the side of his neck, rubbing it nervously. "You were with me... very briefly, non?"
So it seemed the Rulers had brought him back to life. He supposed they weren't tired of playing with him just yet.
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He felt a shiver running down his spine and Germany suddenly felt cold despite actually still feeling warm from his earlier workout. Plain feeling uneasy didn't exactly cover his current feeling anymore. Was France out for revenge now? Should be prepare to defend himself? No. It didn't look that way.
Pressing his mouth shut tightly, Germany glanced away, considering what to say, but ended up merely shaking his head "I-... Hn. It seemed like the only reasonable thing to do. I- I didn't know-..." didn't know what? He had no idea how to even finish that sentence. So instead, he closed his eyes "I'm sorry. You were right..."
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Germany shouldn't have felt threatened by France. His body language gave no indication that he was tense or aggressive. Just nervous, the way he shifted from foot to foot, the way he kept pulling his hair behind his ear.
"I forgive you, Allemagne. I have forgiven you." Meaning, Germany hadn't needed to apologize to get France's forgiveness. "Mais... what was I right about?" He wasn't sure what Germany meant by that part of it, at least, and so that was what stuck with him.
After another moment of watching the sky shift from glorious pink and orange to a fiery red, he murmured softly almost to himself, but his volume was such that Germany could hear him. "I'm seeing everything differently now, it is almost as if even the sunset is more beautiful than any I remember before."
Outside- Morning
She also realized she was becoming more like her denizen when after Francis death, she did not cry. Yoko shed tears for him as she watched him but after that the tears seemed to dry up.
Though she had enough of her past thoughts and decided this morning she would continue her routine of her morning jog. Yoko took her morning as any other before the festivities. She began on her usual route and before she knew it Yoko was getting lost in the rhythm of her feet and breathing. All of this took a stand still when a familiar figure appeared in front of her, simply walking along the cobbled road. Yoko's eyes widened and time froze for a moment and she broke from her dream-like state of mind.
Cautiously, Yoko slowed her jogging, approaching Francis. She chewed on her lower lip. It was...It was him. And relief with a mixture of fear bubbled in her chest. Yoko slowly reached out to pat his shoulder.
"Francis...I-..how? How did you return..?" Yoko started out. She had so many questions but at the same time she was not sure how to even word them.
I am sorry this is so short ;; and late...
That all changed when she touched his shoulder, however. As she asked, the sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach dissipated, left only with the calm. And that was enough to make Francis smiles and slip his hand up, to rest on her wrist, holding loosely while firm enough to show that he was real, this was happening.
"I... am not so sure on this myself, Yoko. But it appears I am alive."
That was all he really could say, for the moment, because the only other thing he wanted to do was apologize - but even he knew it was pointless. She wouldn't let him, he was fairly certain.
♥ never worry bb~ we can take our time. Yoko likes it nice and slow./shot
But before she could ask any of her questions, Yoko stepped closer and very tentatively wrapped her arms around him. She buried her face in his shoulder.
"I'm so glad you're alive Francis..I was so worried." She softly replied, though it was slightly muffled thanks to his shirt.
She pulled away to give him a firm look.
"So..if you're alive then..others could be too. Do you think this world has something to do with bringing you back to life?" She asked," We...as..as dark as this sounds..we could use this to our advantage. But not without really trying to understand this."
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"I am very glad, too. I hate to have worried you so, chère." He tried to smile - tried. "But that is all in the past, non? What matters is that I am here again."
He wanted to have the hug last a little longer, but as Yoko pulled away he let go as well. "I had thought of this, oui... I believe it was the Rulers who brought me back. They have done this sort of thing before, though... bringing the dead from their worlds and reviving them. Mais, I am not sure how to use it to our advantage..." But as he thought of the deaths he had endured only to come back to life, he shivered a little. It made him sick thinking of the pain he had felt, the suffering he'd seen from the others.
"... I-I agree, we need to know more. Alors... we always need to know more."
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What he needed what a supportive friend. She gripped his hands, her eyes staring at the ground.
"We'll figure something other Francis....," She replies softly and then her gaze meets his," F-For now.."
"For now lets go do something...?" Yoko smiles awkwardly and her thumbs rub comforting circles over his palms.
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"All right, let's." This smile was much more genuine. He enjoyed Yoko's company, and this was the perfect way to try and get things back to some semblance of normal. "What were you wanting to do?" Then, as he thought about it, he realized that he still owed this lovely lady a date. He had been reminded from when he died, but now that he was thinking about the potential date he owed her, it was not so dreadful. "You know, I think I still owe you a date. Perhaps we should discuss this?"
their unit, night (or whenever France returns to it)
Not knowing of the strange power of the island that resurrected the dead, he received the shock of his life when he heard noises originating from France's room. At first, he was too frightened to take a look, but eventually he plucked up the courage to sneak over to the door, inch it open and peek through the crack. His eyes widened upon seeing France clutching the wall and staggering to the door, so shocked that he crouched there without saying anything and missed his chance to call out to the man.
Retreating to his bed again, Howl huddled beneath the blankets while he came to terms with what he had just seen. France had died; he'd seen the man's last breath leave him. So how...?
He waited all day for his house mate to return. Other than the occasional foray into the kitchen for food, he stayed mostly in his room and experimented with a few spells, listening for the sound of the door opening and shutting that might mean France had returned.
sorry for late/shortness
So it was no surprise that he came home later in the evening, feeling a lot better than he had been when he'd left. But, that was only mentally - his body still ached, especially from his journey, when his body was still weak from his death and its disuse over several days. So when he came into the house, he was quick to sit down at the kitchen table (letting out a little sigh in the process), to give himself a little rest before he tried to feed himself.
also sorry for lateness ;;
He eased himself out of his chair and wandered out of his room into the kitchen to make some tea. As he passed France, he threw the man a glance. The other looked hale enough. Now, how could he broach the subject in a way that wasn't too blunt...?
Re: also sorry for lateness ;;
He was fairly certain now that he had opened up a conversation, that Howl was going to ask him how this was possible, as all the others had. Unfortunately, the only conclusion he'd come to was that he had no idea himself. Still, it would be good to relax and be friendly again. It had been a while since they'd done that, just the two of them.
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He had been thinking for some time now at trying his hand in making French food. Back home he hadn't bothered since he rarely ate anyway. But having the time to sit down and do things he otherwise wouldn't have done put a great many things into perspective.
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Setting the glass down, half-finished, he let out a bitter snort of laughter. "Like death," he murmured, the morbid pun actually amusing him now that he was completely too tired to care. "May I have your cooking tomorrow morning? I... am not sure I can stomach any food right now." France hadn't eaten all day, but he wasn't sure he was going to be able to finish all of the water, either. And he knew after sleep, he would feel much better.
"Sit with me, s'il te plaît?" Francis motioned to one of the chairs, leaning back a little in his for a moment. He was sure Howl had questions, ones that he had answered a few dozen times to a few dozen people.
/finally rolls in orz
Howl took the indicated seat, staring keenly but not - he hoped - too intently at the other man. He was told sometimes that when he stared in a particular way the force of his stare was a little unsettling. Not in a bad way, but in a manner that suggested he had perhaps too much interest in whatever someone had to say or do. Yet while he knew this, it was hard not to keep his eyes away from Francis and abstain from noticing the tiredness dragging at the lines of the Frenchman's face, his limbs, his very manner.
"I wish I could give you some sort of potion..." he commented, frowning to himself. Air magic was useful, but not nearly as useful alone compared to when it was combined with other strands of magic.
/rolls with ;u;
"Merci beaucoup, mais... I think it is for the best that I recover on my own, mm? I think all I need is a little rest, and I will be right as rain." And frankly, Francis didn't want to admit that he didn't really trust potions, mostly because of the connotations from his world. Especially not when he had the unfortunate condition of mortality at the moment.